Thinking of my dad

It's been almost 2 years since dad passed away. Actually, next week it will be exactly 2 years. It doesn't feel like it has been that long. It is still hard but not as hard as it was the first year. Don't get me wrong: the feeling of sorrow and pain doesn't go away. You just learn how to handle it. To put it in the back of your mind and not let it be the focus of your life. But it is till there. A big empty hole of something that is not right. Someone that is missing that should be there.

I was looking through a few of the earliest posts in this blog - from late 2009, I think. My dad had made me a video - basically the video was done but you needed to upload a picture to it to give it a personal touch and a meaning. I watched it, remembering how it made me feel the first time I saw it and re-living how it made me feel the subsequent times after he passed. Of course it made me cry... but also smile through the tears because it was just so ...Dad. Pappa. So kind, thoughtful  but also funny at the same time.

http://www.tackfilm.se/?id=1259076119414RA32

I miss your hugs, Dad. Love you forever.